Awakening in a state where I'm already feeling spent and unable to recuperate

Torn from nirvana

I just want to close my eyes and dream away this stress and pain I can't hold back the tide

I know that if I just let go

The sea of immensity will mercilessly swallow me whole

I never asked for this life

Born into ruin, grasping onto light

Day after day

Beaten, I chip away

Toiling through vexations

Wave after wave

I feel like a slave

Doomed to this constant decay

The past piling high

Forgotten dreams

I left to die

Fed such lies we swallow them whole

Vain, bitter and vile

Crippling my will and leaving me senseless

Why am I aware of this?

Stuck in a cycle ever so torturous

Wake up

It's your life and only you control it

We must free ourselves alone from our own torments

Sick of the patterns I have forged with my own intent and I figure

This is all I'm ever going to be, relentlessly

Recycling forward unto naught, all progression returns to rot

Unable to resist the urge to slip

A failed captain goes down with his ship

To drown in unending days

Hopelessly as you pray

You drown in your petty ways, witness us wither away

Wither away with us

Day after day

Beaten, I chip away

Day after day

Breaking my back as I dig my shallow grave I slowly rot away

Day after day

Forgetting to breathe

Day after day

Searching through sorrow

To find a way for this strain to leave me

Day after day

Beaten, I chip away

Toiling through vexations

Wave after wave I'm feeling like a slave

Doomed to this constant decay

Day by day, I slave away in mediocrity

Day by day, cultivating my anxiety

Day by day, I waste away into obscurity

Underneath the pressure of the fear that takes control of me

This weight I bear breaks my legs, shatters my spine

Empty inside

Cycles of sickness seem to be my only form of existence