All my friends know

Did you ever want me? No worries if not It's just that I, I told my mom, she thinks we're still going strong She knows that I, I stay fond of you That she can't ignore How every day she knocks but I don't answer my door Every time I look outside my house, I try to make myself believe (I can look at nature and feel good again) She just called and texted to say I want to talk but I'm too scared to meet (is that why you think the worst of me?) You say we'll make up, why'd you say that? Why'd you break up? ('Cause I never got to teach myself at all) How to not show myself let go? All my friends know that you think the worst of me Even when you broke my heart Now we're living worlds apart Now I thought you said I'm smart (never got to teach myself at all) Now that all that's done and said I see all the time I spent Not talking to my best friend 'Cause I thought the worst of me