Blue Mind

I can't tell if I'm cursed Or just blessed beyond measure If pain equals pleasure Then why are my insides on fire Isn't that what you wanted My knees always weak But my foot taps a hole through the floor Waking up in that cold sweat A dream about drowning Beautiful and horrific It stings There's new pain in my throat when I sing And the lines in my face always change Save the rest for tomorrow If it comes we'll burn that bridge down One is somebody with nothing Two are the weeks that remain Three voices crowding my conscience Enough to acknowledge The difference between you and I When my hands became calloused Although I can't stand it We were so happy That we could have died Stare deep at the blue wall If you can hear waves crash We no longer have any time left Panic nausea The difference between you and I Falling out now So happy that we could have died Yet another rift is growing Tell me why I've stood my ground As the Earth rips wide open I'm finally looking down I don't think I'd make the jump No light is seen from that smile now Let the water take my body right back to the sea See how they can barely notice you It's always so strange when I can't seem to Stop focusing on the sound of my heartbeat I can't take much more The colors bend and break me The waves just pound against me So why the fuck does my brain take me there Take me there