What I Should Have Said

Um I wrote a speech all about how amazing you are And how You made me who I am today But I don't think you'd be proud of how I'm turning out I'm rarely happy And if I am it's because it's temporary My emotions just hide behind a facade because I don't want anyone knowing how much I miss you When I'm home alone I sit and cry And think of all the things I could have done with you And should have done But I was too selfish to spend more time with you You meant everything to me And I wish you had taken better care of yourself Or that I should've known better I love you so much and I always think about you Always I want you to know that I want you here But I know you can't be so just know I love you so so much Beyond words can describe So I think about all the things I have to tell you Even just to tell you about my day Because with every day that goes by I'm scared that our memories will start to fade I can't do anything at all, without thinking of you Everything I do is touched by your memory I feel like nobody could ever understand how much I miss you I often think of all the things I wish I'd said and should have said But I never Imagined you'd be gone so soon You mean everything to me And I wish I could hold you just one more time Or that you'd pick up the phone Just so I could hear your voice I love you so much and I will never forget you Never I need you to know that I want you here But I know you can't be so just know I love you so so much Beyond words can describe I love you so much and I will never forget you Never I need you to know that I want you here But I know you can't be so just know I love you so so much Beyond words can describe