Roll it then I smoke it till it's ash

What's here today is over in a flash

Some days I just wanna throw 150 on the dash

Take my whip into a wall and disappear inside the crash, but

I know my brother's pain if I do it

And I wish that I ain't had this type of brain or medulla

But who am I to the blame the one they crucified for giving me this human side that flirts around with suicide?

I'm too alive, so move aside

And let's snap out of it

Let's go get your life on track, forreal this time, I'm adamant

Let's go be the one they look at and say, "oh, he having it"

And let go of your baggage boy I swear to god you dragging it

And I don't understand the half of it

Feel like I woke up one day and bad feelings inhabited my spirit, and my soul, and my physical anatomy, and told that my life until this point was a catastrophe

And they stick with me as I'm older so

I tend to compartmentalize my insides like a folder

I lay awake at night sometimes, wishing I could hold her

But that's only because the weather's colder than her shoulder was

And all them kisses and them shoulder rubs

On them nights when it was only us

For a while I was sick about it I know I got mad but I ain't had to be a dick about it

Now it's hanging in the balance

But today's a gift because today is coming with her absence

And with that I been learning how to maximize my talents, and to put my best foot forward, and to always seek a challenge

Now it's nothing

And this'll be the end of my discussion

What's meant for you going to find you once you overcome corruption and act like you guarding Kirilenko and go stop the Russian