I Hope

Dear God Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can't change The courage to change the things I can And the wisdom to know the difference I hope one day you can show me Help me be someone who's beneficial Not just someone who's thinking emotionally Lately I feel like I'm slowly Losing my grip and my sanity listening in to the people convincing and pulling Me in these different directions Only to satisfy all of their needs I hope one day you can show me Someone that's capable treating my heart Like the one sitting inside of their chest as it beats I need somebody to hold me Up to a standard that breaks me apart From all these bottom feeders who just party and drink God can you try to indulge me Show me I'm meant to go far Farther than scarfing down ramen or living through nights Where I'm starving to eat I got the talent, I got the work ethic now all I need now is the timing and luck Been to rock bottom, I've been through oppression A true definition of diamond in roughs I said this before let me say it again that no matter the climate I'll weather the storm, I've given my life what more do you want What more do you want Dear lord help me find some light inside this world shadows Cause temptation is urging me to act out not so natural All my sins are drowning me, regrets to hard to handle But I pray for your forgiveness and I lead by your example Dear God I hope one day you can show me forgiveness I know it's weird cause I'm not so religious But I've been a cheater and I've been a liar But not for the status and not for the gimmicks It's more because my heart can't make a decision Slowly it's morphing my identity in this choice That I'm praying one day you relinquish I need a sign to pursue who I love or pursue what I dream Cause this hesitation keeps on killing All of my progress and my self esteem as of lately I'm reaching my limits I know that love is a four letter word but also is hate Which side of the fence am I living Regret is an anchor; it's pulling me down to the depths of despair I need your forgiveness