Far From Perfect

I need to learn how to love myself If I don't, then no one will My friends call me often, I have a problem My own skin is a place I don't know, the mirrors are hauntin' You know I don't wanna be grim But if I do not help me, the world I'll envy The cold gets colder and I can't stop shaking The walls get closer and I can't stop pacing I need time to be away from everything But I do not trust me with my own well-being I'm far from perfect, don't call me your idol I'm always searchin' for answers from my own survival I need to learn how to love myself If I don't, then no one will I keep my hands around my throat I squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal I need to learn how to love myself If I don't, then no one will I keep my hands around my throat I'll squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal It could be any day now It could be any day now It could be any day now (day now) It could be any day But not today, oh, not today I wanna break through and escape These chains I made, my mind a maze So I will take what I can take Thought these emotions were a phase My bones could break from all the pain I put myself through every day But not today, oh, not today! I need to learn how to love myself If I don't, then no one will I keep my hands around my throat I squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal Back then, I was never complacent I had a dream and I even chased it I had a heart inside of my chest And it beat with the love of everyone I met If I met me now, would I be my friend? These wounds won't heal 'til I make amends With every word that I ever said To myself that make me lose my head