Dirty Office Bongos

Tried to answer the phone when you called I feel ashamed that I put you off for this long I know that you will forgive me but I can't Started thinking, it's better if I just forget I don't know why I'm anxious It's hard to say, I know I fucked up again I don't mean to neglect and An invitation An open hand to pull me out from this pit I don't want to disappoint again I know That things changed when I left I hope When we talk you'll say you understand I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent It's hard to call home You're waiting for days, dial and disconnect Put off too long 'cause someday you'll be gone I won't notice Away in some state when I get the call Seems I should grow Replace me A better family He'll act his age He'll know how to cope with what I've made I know That things changed when I left Pick apart why I get nervous Try to force my faults to surface I hope When we talk you'll understand Try to change but I can't help it I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent It's hard to call home You're waiting for days, dial and disconnect Put off too long 'cause someday you'll be gone I won't notice Away in some state when I get the call I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent You've waited for days, dial and disconnect I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent I've waited for days, you're already gone I wanted to notice I wanted to know But I can't change the way I am It's harder to focus My thoughts feel like static You're gone and I wasn't there I wanted to notice I wanted to know But I can't change the way I am It's harder to focus My thoughts feel like static You're gone and I wasn't there