This pain will never end

I can't see you again

This is no dream

It is my permanent nightmare

I woke up today

To see the sky had fallen

You took your own life in vain

To face the final calling

I don't know what I'm supposed to do

I try to pick up the pieces

Without one single clue

Did we fail you, my friend

Or was this meant to happen

Did we fail you, my friend

Could it have been different

If you were not alone

Would it have been different

If you just picked up your phone

I am lost for words, my friend

I just don't understand how this could be the end

Did I miss your warning signs

When you looked at me and told me you were fine

I need to get all this shit off my chest

How could you leave

Without warning, devastating me

Now here I stand

Alone

Searching for your halo

It wasn't your time to go

Now deep inside I try to find

The reasons you left us behind

The reasons that you took your life

Gone without warning

I drive myself crazy just thinking about

Who you'd become if you stuck it out

I'm blaming, constraining, degrading and shaming myself

For every single interaction where I could have helped

Now I see, it's so clear to me

You can't be happy in a world drowning mentally

But now after all the pain another life is lost and we will never be the same

Now here I stand

Alone

Searching for your halo

It wasn't your time to go

Now deep inside I try to find

The reasons you left us behind

The reasons that you took your life

Why did you have to go

Like the river my pain for you flows

I wish I could lift you up

Oh God why did you have to go

Please tell me,

No

Now here I stand

Alone

Searching for your halo

It wasn't your time to go

Now deep inside I try to find

The reasons you left us behind

The reasons that you took your life

Where is your halo

Where

Is your halo

How

How could you let life go

Why did you have to go

Now we're broken and alone