Rock Bottom

Yeah, I sit alone in my bed, I lay I can't sit and justify my ways I let depression pick apart my brain My mind's a weapon and I'm in my aim A lotta money sitting in my bank Living in debt 'cause the price I paid I sit alone questioning my faith Behind my phone just to hide my face 'Cause if I don't then I just might break Don't really know what measures I'll take My heart corrodes and it can't be saved I should've known what was at stake I'm turning cold 'cause my life don't change I wanna fold, but I just can't cave, I gotta flight (no) Don't know how much left is in me (no) Why do my thoughts always turn against me? Why's it so hard when my problems hit me? What if all along the problem is me? Broken as hell, there's no way to fix me I feel like a misfit I wish all of my burdens were lifted I was blind to the lies I was given Visit my mind and you'll find that it's twisted I'm twisted, don't hate me Still running but forget what I'm chasing I'm burnt out, I need matches to save me It turns out that I'm actually crazy I find it crazy how I never broke outta this cycle I know what the issue is, I'm in denial I should probably go to church and open the bible I've been putting off God, I need him for survival I admit I'm a sinner, but I believe in Christ though Holding on to my hope, knowing that if I don't I'ma end up on the edge, I'm my biggest rival Resent the pain I hold and plus on a side note I broke down yesterday still I'm numb now, I don't feel Struggling, I can't feel No one's stepped in my field Broken down after I build Lotta fakes, can't find real I need my glass refilled Dead inside, can't find thrill I'm still at the bottom by myself Stress been effecting my health Pressures got my overwhelmed, I just checked in a hotel I needa be alone, don't wanna be alone I feel like I am in hell I just check my phone, why do I have a phone? (Why?) Ain't no one hitting my cell, yeah It is just me and it's always been We could've had love but you came and went It's okay, it's alright 'cause we made amends But I still think about what we could've been But enough about that, let's get back to this I want real, I don't care what your status is If I spot out a fake, I'ma handle it I don't care if you leave, you'll be back again 'Cause you'll be back and I promise that A bunch of lames on IG hitting me for a follow back Hoping that I follow back, honestly, I am off of that This popularity contest is lame, and I'm not a part of that Instead of getting a follow, why don't you get to know me? Don't say you love me, display the action and show me I set the bar high, don't got no time for you phonies Tryna show me fake love, that's why I'm feeling so lonely I'm slowly hitting rock bottom, but I'm tryna climb to peak I cry myself to sleep the misery that it brings Is making wanna leave and walk away from my dreams 'Cause it's no longer fulfilling, I'm living my life on E, I need (I need) Somebody to save me Talking to myself, man, I feel like I'm crazy I'm sick of me and all my problems You can't go lower when you hit rock bottom Ooo, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh I can't get much lower than this (I can't get much lower) Nah, I can't get much lower than this (I can't get much lower) Ooh-ooh