No One Is Reliable

Recently been going under Colder than the tundra You be sleeping on me slumber Only want to give you the cucumber Wouldn't give my heart I won't give my brain Used to think that I was smart Swear to God, I've gone insane In times I lack awareness What some others call careless Rarely I get embarrassed Based on other peoples standards Not the type of dude to pander Though they don't like my candor I'm tryna be myself in a world full of cancer Keep it brief Chase relief From the pain and the stress Ran away, I never left You know I'm sad you never guessed I regressed so far Pushed too hard that I dropped my guard Now my hearts in shards Grown numb for the world Numb for the pain Dumb for the girls Use my dick for a brain If it don't go well, ain't got nothing to say Guess it's all my fault, best be walking away Miss the good times I miss the old days I know my head spins when the Earth rotates And my thoughts crowd, but they ain't got no space I've been telling myself that it's okay But it's not though I was at the top floor And then I jumped off and I cracked my skull Down onto the pavement I ain't been the same since For this world I ain't ever had the patience Love to tell me what I lack Like it's a matter of fact You're jumping to conclusions don't expect me to react One time I had a good thing but it ended in a flash I see no one is reliable, and I'm okay with that I put the weight upon myself I should not blame anyone else Nothing is permanent in this life the snow will melt And I've accepted that, but nonetheless Realizing this was painful I guess But once I learned the lesson It was easier to cope People in it for themselves I used to blame 'em, now I don't Friends don't worry 'bout your feelings They too worried 'bout their own I have to not worry about the things that I can not control Don't you catch my drift You following along? I hope that one day someone proves this wrong But I will not hold my breath This ain't woah as me, this is real AF Hmm, no one is reliable Hmm, no one is reliable Hmm, no one is reliable Except me