Portrait (feat. Conscience)

I fail to comprehend the world that surrounds me Pistols poppin' off all over cash and rap beef Fightin' over flows, and numbers that all the crowds see Then ignore the impact, and everything the child sees Flexin' all the gold, you no Egyptian goddess Shinin' with the diamonds like Rihanna in a comet Stars all in your roof, the whip is rollin' hella cosmic But you'll be driven crazy if you're shinin' 'till you're blinded No more violence, I'm tired of sayin' "I'm tryin" The sky has been subsided by the lead that's flyin' high and You try to justify it, there's no hidin' actin' childish Slide aside your pride and let your eyes accept the guidance If the peace is truly worth it, drop your piece, it isn't worth it 'Fore we receive the verdict, we should really keep it urgent To come together, and finally unite as one Put aside the differences, escape what life's become (yeah) You see this world is just a giant demolition derby Bound to crash and burn all for some motherfucking money Rewind that line or don't, I don't mind cause surely History repeats itself in time cause nobody's learning See people like you concern me because my vision is blurry Have people reading shit for me but even I can see these people hurting Begging and starving, but you're too focused on watches To stop and see that you lost and packaged up in a box with Every other new artist, man the shit makes me nauseous I see your minds on the carton 'cause motherfucker you lost it But nowadays, shit, I guess it's cool to be heartless Cool to be a piece of shit cause they gon' listen regardless Yeah, I'm guilty of it too, consider this my catharsis I ain't fucking with it man, this world is driven by darkness Heading down the wrong way, switchin lanes got me carsick So stop and listen, if not to me, then your conscience Shit's crazy, man The world's now more divided than we've ever been We just need to come together and realize that we're all one We're all human It feels like the internet's a curse and a blessing 'Cause your friends are worldwide, you just search and connect it But make one wrong move and you servin' a sentence Piss the wrong person off and you're reduced to a menace How can I try when obstacles contrived By my enemies are stackin' up sky high? I fight their vile lies to fly with bright shine And cry if I dive in five minutes time Tell me, when I die, will I be recognized? Or am I set aside except to criticize? If I let my heart rise, and speak in due time Will you finally realize, or still be too shy? If life was picture perfect, then I just got catfished Went to paint a self portrait, in hopes of retractin' Any pain that was haunting me back in the past tense But all it did was show me that I need more practice, yeah You know, I think the biggest thing that bothers me Is my own inability to be... ...to be myself I wanna be accepted by others But I feel like I have to do trendy things And wear certain things to fit in And it bleeds over into my personality To the point that I'm forced to question "Who is the real me?"