white lies

Lines are growing thin I'm no longer sleeping in The shirt you met me in I don't know if we don't talk Because I'm in the city Pretending that I'm busy Meant to come back home Yesterday, but I delayed The train to stay alone Still, went to the station To imagine you in Euston Smiling like you used to And who knows what I'd say If you were real today? Sometimes, I tell white lies Like, "I will always want you No matter the rocks above you" And yes, sometimes, I tell white lies Like, "I don't wanna leave you I don't want a life without you" But the truth is maybe I do time to time Picture someone giving me The version of my life I imagined first with you So long before you lost us God knows that we lost us And who knows what that would've looked like A world where you didn't keep changing your mind? And, sometimes, I tell white lies Like, "I will always want you No matter the rocks above you" Oh, sometimes, I tell white lies Like, "I'm gonna up and leave you And I want a life without you" But the truth is maybe I don't