Credits
PERFORMING ARTISTS
Ezra Williams
Performer
Rebecca Williams
Lead Vocals
Jacky O'Halloran
Drums
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Rebecca Williams
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Ezra Williams
Producer
Matt Wiggins
Mixing Engineer
Matt Colton
Mastering Engineer
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Something's stopping me
Something's shutting my mouth
Every time you say things first
I say them back but it doesn't count
[Verse 2]
Deep routed
But I don't remember why
Your hand on my lap made me shake
And on the train home, I cried
[Chorus]
If it's what I dream I want
Why can't I let myself have it?
If it's what I dream I need
Why can't I let myself feel it?
If it's what I dream I want
Why can't I let myself like it?
If it's what I dream I need
Why am I so scared to keep it?
[Verse 3]
You asked if your hands were cold
I didn't notice till you pointed it out
I felt my brain turn and fold
And then it was all I could think about
[Verse 4]
I like your skin
Just not on mine
If I can't let you in
Am I wasting both of our time?
[Chorus]
If it's what I dream I want
Why can't I let myself have it?
If it's what I dream I need
Why can't I let myself feel it?
If it's what I dream I want
Why can't I let myself like it?
If it's what I dream I need
Why am I so scared to keep it?
[Bridge]
I'm only numb to the touch that's not meant to cause pain
I don't recognise the feeling so it just goes away
Am I scared of you or am I scared that I'm not?
I'm lonely when you're here, I'm lonely a lot
Can't tell if I'm killing time or if if this time is killing me
Convincing myself you're lying and you hate me really
[Bridge]
Is this how it is?
Is this who I am?
Guilty from a kiss
Rejecting your hand
[Bridge]
It's always the same
Why can't I change?
Why can't I change?
Why can't I change?
[Chorus]
If it's what I dream I want
Why can't I let myself have it?
If it's what I dream I need
Why can't I let myself feel it?
If it's what I dream I want
Why can't I let myself like it?
If it's what I dream I need
Why am I so scared to keep it?
[Outro]
If it's what I dream I want
If it's what I dream I need
If it's what I dream I want
If it's what I dream I need
Written by: Rebecca Williams
