solitary (feat. Saint Sleep & COMA6)

Hide my pain on the corner of the yard being solitary Staring at my cracked phone screen before I have to hurry The day started perfectly without greeting anyone That's fine, because ignoring me is what they want I ain't got no social since a long time They learned with their partners, I learned with myself Well, this puzzle part is too unstable for my health Yeah, I done all the work by myself Every time I get to know a new circle of people With self-confidence at zero, without the ego of a hero Does it feel like it takes an eternity to make it peaceful But would it work out if our world is not even at that level? Would it work out? Is there something I doubt? Maybe yeah, maybe not, maybe, why not? I still trying to find the faith in a not-so-full amount Of people in this fucking house I just seen the evil in these people they don't want to be my friends Why just treat me equal when you need a cleanse away from this bullshit Completely understand you like the static on the television I can see why you wanna split I can see why you wanna dip away from this place become someone else for a day Maybe someone with some false ambitions Maybe be a person with some plans or something Have a little garden with some plants that you never water Be a better author write a book about the bargains that you never made Watch me fade away into obscurity both forget the times we had until we 53 I can see that you kept the chains on my feet How nice it must be to never let me free Crazy how far that you've come but you have yet to be a better me Hope its the last time coming, got both feet on the ground Fucking knots inside my stomach, wonder how I made it out Bleeding gums and shaky hands, now what the fuck I'm on about? Screaming demons out my lungs Now they projecting out my mouth Always wonder why they help in the deep ruts Always wonder why I stayed with that fake love I been fucked so many times for the same lust Never wondered why I offered up my frayed gut Sick of speaking on the shit that made me hate trust But I been learning how to make it through the pain fine And if I offered up my soul would you repay us If I can find another one that won't betray mine If I can find another one that won't betray mine If I can find another one that won't betray mine