Alive

And it's getting hard to breath I wonder what I will see When the smoke clears Will you still be standing there Through all of the darkest nights Will you be there by my side Through all of the pain All of the shame that makes us feel Alive Alive is what it makes me feel Behind enemy lines when things get real Living by the sword till the blood then spills We cry heaven and god as someone's then killed For the umpteenth time man I love that thrill Valley of death tryna climb that hill When you're stuck in a war where your only shield Is a foxhole laying in an open field I been through it all pitfalls and pain Got blood sweat and tears dripping down my face A lot of people wanna doubt the gains And clown my name But I still rise out the flames I hear the sound of thunder clouds and rain The bangs making houses shake It's bout to break the roof off and pound away Man I doubt escape is possible anymore Nows too late so hunker down and bow to fate Wait it's still here The fear After all those years You could still feel that trauma there Post traumatic stress and all that terror That you had to bear in your noggin Where the problems aired Say to god I'm scared I don't got a prayer Nope broken beyond repair Oh well hopeless but I don't care Whatchu know about a young mans scars Who was hospitalized he was dying slow I try to run away from the past But it creeps back in when my eyes are closed Look back and see the rising smoke From all the damage that I've imposed And I used to want to kill myself Till mama told me it wasn't time to go Ah my oh my We're probably never gonna see eye to eye But I'll still be by your side One final time It's why they call it ride or die You won't survive if we don't try To overcome what we've become It's like I'm starring down the barrel Of a loaded gun The chosen one But I still never open up Cause every time that I try I just close back shut And it's getting hard to breath I wonder what I will see When the smoke clears Will you still be standing there Through all of the darkest nights Will you be there by my side Through all of the pain All of the shame that makes us feel Alive And whether you Love me or hate me They underrate me I got some demons Maybe a genius but some say I'm crazy Try to defeat me but no one can break me I'm not a man on this land I'm a phoenix I mean it from ashes I rise on the daily Look what you made me Music it made me a monster Music it made me a maniac Ah Look at these cowards Look at these rookies surround us Count up the hours that I put in When you couldn't They should have then crowned us Bout time they give me my flowers Get down and bow to us I'm not a king I'm a prophet of God I got infinite power I'm someone who started from nothing Was put on this earth to devour Super villain aw Like godzilla kong Go gorillas on Everybody gotta kill em' all Going beast mode I see ghosts At least those egos On these foes Delete those For my final act Rewind it back To when I was a kid Who was tryna rap But kinda wack I swore one day I'd get a diamond plaque There's still time for that yeah When the sky falls And the lights go Will you hold me Through the night though Late at night now And it's ice cold Will you love me If I'm psycho I'ma psycho Yeah I know I'm alive not well but I try though Fuck a high road Had high hopes So I pray to god with my eyes closed Why though? And it's getting hard to breath I wonder what I will see When the smoke clears Will you still be standing there Through all of the darkest nights Will you be there by my side Through all of the pain All of the shame that makes us feel Alive