Nightmare (feat. SkyDxddy)

I've dealt with worse than you I've felt what it's like to lose I'm not scared of what's out there I've seen the worst in my nightmares Can't escape hell, 23 years in this jail cell No bail help, I've prayed, yelled But remain stuck like a hangnail Walking on eggshells Fuck, every day I just take L's My whole life's been a nightmare Where every day feels like a lightyear So, remember me, PTSD, the memories Mentally there's no coming back from hell I'm trapped Like Alcatraz in a penitentiary Take your pick, life's a game, oh life's bitch But it don't matter to the referee, when death is the only penalty So rest in peace I've dealt with worse than you I've felt what it's like to lose I'm not scared of what's out there I've seen the worst in my nightmares Look at all the times, all the nights that intensified Every day that I spent inside, barely getting by Used to lay on my bed and cry, a pathetic guy Not chill so I pop pills, how many times till I'm getting high? Suicide's been on my mind, yeah I wanna die But I don't wanna make my momma cry So I try to hide it, I tell and lie, I scream and yell That I don't need help, I said I'm fine But dead inside, all my life I live petrified Left paralyzed by anxiety and depressing times All my life, all my life I pray to God, pray to God To go way up high, far away from that Satan fire Darker days, even darker nights from flames I rise Days are getting longer, the nights are getting cold So I pray to god that the devil is never taking my soul Yeah, the days are getting longer, nights are getting colder I've seen the worst in my nightmares Yeah, I've seen it all, all the lows Mountain tops that are way up high All the peaks that I'll never reach The few mountains I could never climb There was a time mortal men Born again so we pray to god And pray the lord, our soul to keep There comes a day when we lay and rise I can't rise from the bottom, why would I bother When you so depressed that you can't even get outta bed If I'm being honest I'd rather be dead than alive Sometimes I scream at the sky yelling "I don't want it", all my life All my life I've defined them odds When the doctors told me I was gonna die I crawled outta bed then rose I rose to the sky Why? I don't know why I don't know why, someone give me a sign All the times that I fell, all the pain that I felt How the fuck I'm alive? When every night was like hell but all I ever do is try Fuck, am I losing my mind?, not even closing my eyes Too many nightmares Cause I've dealt with worse than you I've felt what it's like to lose, but don't get it confused Even when I'm on the ground, and I'm down for the count I'll fight back up and I'll knock you out Cause it's been one hell of a ride, God I've been through fire, I went through the flames Every night but I rose to the top, bye It's from the flames, I will rise I've dealt with worse than you I've felt what it's like to lose I'm not scared of what's out there I've seen the worst in my nightmares I've dealt with worse than you I've felt what it's like to lose I'm not scared of what's out there I've seen the worst in my nightmares