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Why do I have to listen to you when you have zero to say? Because I'm young? All my life I've been young So I never get a turn! Hyper-aggressive if I'm honest I can't stand to be alone My friends are so progressive They called me "Faggot" a year ago And I couldn't cut them off Because then I'd be on my own Being obsessive sounds depressing But it's just the way it goes Just the way it goes And will that ever fucking change? As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm never gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change I'm never gonna change! My friends on Fentanyl I hope they find inner peace On life support for a week I heard they died in their sleep There's so much truth in the fiction Don't know what to believe There's so much money in addiction that I'm dying to need Something more (Somethin' more, somethin') I'm just dying to be something more! Something more And will that ever fucking change? As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm never gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) (As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever get it right (As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever find the words (As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever be enough (As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever fucking change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm never gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change I'm never gonna change! Everybody talks to me like I'm crazy Oh, I should change Why should I change? I don't even gotta find out who I am You want me to change, it's crazy You tell me I'm bad before I even get to be anything What the hell is that? Original sin or something? It's you that wants to end before you can start But when I say I wanna say anything, I'm not right? Not gonna cry I'm gonna find my place in this world, count on it