Extrovert

I forgot how to socialize It's embarrassing and I don't know why I could stay up all through the night Just rethinking what I would say better next time At some point I got insecure I care too much about the words That come outta my mouth How do people do it? Theirs just keeps on moving I wanna talk to someone without feeling anxious Think I'm no fun with our conversations Oh, all I want right now Is to calm right down And not overthink my every word Talk to someone without my heart racing So, I escape to my imagination Oh, all I want right now Is to see myself living in another universe I hope my alter ego is an extrovert I think I would be happier that way Maybe I would have more friends Go out to the parties often I would be invited places Get along with everyone I meet I won't feel bad Saturday night at home watching TV, no I wouldn't think I'm missing out I'm always there, right in the crowd I'd probably drown if I was there now I'd hate that, wanna get out 'Cause is that how I should be? What I should like? These questions are swallowing me Would I be a better version of myself? That's what I would like to believe, but It's all a dream, I'll never be that ver-version of me I always see when I can't fall asleep Imagining me talk-talking away Have so much to say, I, I just don't I'm good with listening in, they think I'm bored, but I'm interested Not good at showing it, this how I live There's nothing wrong with that, but At some point I got insecure I care too much about the words That come outta my mouth How do people do it? Theirs just keeps on moving I wanna talk to someone without feeling anxious Think I'm no fun with our conversations Oh, all I want right now Is to calm right down And not overthink my every word Talk to someone without my heart racing So, I escape to my imagination Oh, all I want right now Is to see myself living in another universe I hope my alter ego is an extrovert I hope my alter ego is an extrovert