Perfectionist

I know perfect doesn't exist But somehow I think that I could reach it I don't need help, think that I could fix it All by myself, I'm too scared to admit Nothing I do is good enough for My stubborn brain, it always wants more I hope it will make sense one day But until then, I will say I'm a perfectionist Something I can't resist Working day and night Yet it is still not right I don't think I can quit I always need more time I'm a perfectionist Overthink what I did Can't be good enough, only flawless It's never enough if I'm honest If I'm honest I've been feeling paralyzed Overthinking back and forth Always argue with my mind But what am I searching for I need to relax with my thoughts stacked high It is nearly impossible to ignore this time Leave it on my desk for another day Everything I need to do But I cannot concentrate Never will finish what I'm beginning cause it's not enough I just push it off for another month, yeah And I'm sorry to myself I know I am holding me back from doing well When did I learn not to accept getting help If I let go of control, will it all be worth it Will I ever be okay with not being perfect I'm a perfectionist Something I can't resist Working day and night Yet it is still not right I don't think I can quit I always need more time I'm a perfectionist Overthink what I did Can't be good enough, only flawless It's never enough if I'm honest If I'm honest I'm not doing anything right Can you tell me Why are my standards way too high I hope you never know what it's like To be in my mind To be in my mind I'm not doing anything right Can you tell me Why are my standards way too high I hope you never know what it's like To be in my mind To be in my mind I'm a perfectionist Something I can't resist Working day and night Yet it is still not right I don't think I can quit I always need more time I'm a perfectionist Overthink what I did Can't be good enough, only flawless It's never enough if I'm honest If I'm honest