Hopeless

I been feeling hopeless, have you noticed? Haven't really been okay I been feeling hopeless, have you noticed? Haven't been myself in days I wrote this on a Tuesday I woke up hoping that I could do things, even just a few things Step up from Monday Sit inside my room, played loops 'til the room shake Still not feeling nothing Maybe if I hit the gym I'll get a second wind On second thought, I think I'd rather check up on my friends instead A couple messages I kept unread I go to type, but instead I kept them on read Why's it always the things left unsaid that speak volumes? Thinking I should call you, tell you 'bout the place that I fell to But what if you fall too? I know you all too well, you're attached to my emotions Don't wanna burden you, I guess I'll hold this I'll figure it all out when I'm at my lowest But if I'm being honest, I hope you notice I been feeling hopeless, have you noticed? Haven't really been okay I been feeling hopeless, have you noticed? Haven't been myself in days Yeah Lately, I forget who myself is Caught up in opinions of the people I dealt with Thinking that I need to be the person that they want me to be 'Cause being me is probably just selfish, right? They tell me, write a song about the way that I'm feeling But this writer's block got me in the way of my healing Self-doubt, like a hundred pounds, always hold me down Can't break through the ceiling But I'd rather try and fail than never try at all And I'd rather climb the hill than never climb at all I'd rather love and lose than not ever love Ain't about falling down, it's 'bout getting up You ask me how I'm doing, and I said I'm feeling fine I know you don't believe me 'cause you ask a second time I still double down and tell you everything's alright Don't you worry, I just need to get outside, clear my mind The moment that I leave you'll be texting me, checking me Always want the best for me, my ride or die If you ain't giving up on me, then why should I? I went back inside, look you in the eyes and I told you I been feeling hopeless, have you noticed? Haven't really been okay I been feeling hopeless, have you noticed? Haven't been myself in days