Under Your Knife

I held your hand, withstanding your demands Enchanted by the rapture that you promised me Under your knife, deprived of normal life I strived to find the meaning that would set me free A broken promise in an ocean of mistakes You'll reassure me that I'm happier this way But I can't seem to forget Each time you lied for profit And it's making me nauseous To hide your crimes of passion Now every day's the same, can't will away The pain that you've inflicted is a part of me Praying for death, regrets are all I've kept You've left me in the dark to writhe in agony I never thought the cost of love once lost Could rot me from the inside out in atrophy I was so blind to signs of our demise Realized nothing's alright but now it's far too late I'm never honest when I tell you it's okay There is no cure for us but I can take the pain But I can't seem to forget Each time you lied for profit And it's making me nauseous To hide your crimes of passion A shattered trust, the ashes of what once was A fairy tale with morals destined to fail Through every truth my spirit sold I've traded my heart's weight in gold The scars run deep, haunt me in sleep Forever drenched in your consequences Drown the past, I'm fading fast I've gotta find my way back now I've gotta find my way back