In the End

It starts with One thing, I don't know when I found myself lost in the story again Lookin' to try to find hope hidden within Don't even know where to begin to pick up the pen And all I did when I try to be better for you Is add another piece of me to the things that I lose Following the trauma buried down in the roots It got me stuck trying to move And all of it is so unlike the way I was before I feel this Pulled out the sword and it's too much to deal with Hard to see the pain when the cuts kept concealed Right undernеath the skin and going deep within And all of the intent that I had at thе start It doesn't matter now when it's all falling apart What it meant to me will eventually be a memory Of the time I I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end, it doesn't even matter One thing, I don't know what it takes To find the strength to be the one finally walking away So I'm writing this to look at in my mind, at the way You had me feeling like a walking mistake And I've been lying awake And lying to myself thinking about a past life Find my way through the dark with your gas light Lookin' back at all the things I have tried I'm surprised that it got so far It's like you only want what I won't be Got a space in your heart for the old me Now, I don't even think you knew him well Like how can you be with someone you love and feel lonely? I should've known at the start It doesn't matter now, when it's all fallen apart And what I meant to you will eventually Be a memory too I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end, it doesn't even matter I put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There's only one thing you should know I've put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There's only one thing you should know I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end, it doesn't even matter