Misguided Light

If it's all it takes to save me from falling away A subtle breeze; it cascades Let me sleep awake Every day you watch me suffocate Driven further from reality with every breath I take Painted gold; the illusion of a perfect world Carbonized by my undying hate (What do you do when it takes you under?) What do you do when it takes you under? Where do you go your sky turns somber? I can't replace the pain you faced Hope feels like a distant ember A brighter world where the dreams still wander Show me light beating down on my skin Show me paradise, where it lies within The darker colors take me over, take me over Existence like a bird and a window Incessantly, the sorrow swallows Persistence led a ghost to my shadow Realigning me to suffering Walk away As if you're the one to blame Just walk away I'll take the risk of death, attain my dying wish Just for a sense of who I'm meant to be You almost left this place Don't let me feel that pain What do you do when it takes you under? Where do you go when your sky turns somber? I can't replace the pain you faced Hope feels like a distant ember A brighter world where the dreams still wander I never blamed you for seeking escape We see the end in the thought of falling away Forever vacant, this life has led you astray Will we ever find the meaning to this? Or are we stuck in it's endless infinite?