So What I Lied

So what I lied Should I have said I'm not alright What age were you When you found out your dad is human too Now I feel guilty when I hold onto you So what I lied I don't know how to love you right Self-awareness Or self-obsession, I Don't wanna share this But I'm not sleeping right I think I'm falling But I can't trust it yet I'm 23, but I still feel like a kid in my head 'cause I know what my parents' had Should I expect the same for me? When you look at me like that I feel afraid of what you see I get scared 'cause I expect you to run And I think I'm just overthinking too much So what I lied Should I have said I'm not alright What age were you When you found out your dad is human too Now I feel guilty when I hold onto you So what I lied I don't know how to love you right You said you could wait until I got myself in check But I still see the shadows of the nights I won't get back When I go home I just an empty house and I think I feel too loudly Don't wanna talk about it I know what my parents' had Should I expect the same for me? When you look at me like that I feel afraid of what you see I get scared 'cause I expect you to run And I think I'm just overthinking too much So what I lied Should I have said I'm not alright What age were you When you found out your dad is human too Now I feel guilty when I hold onto you So what I lied I don't know how to love you right I think too much about it every night, I Think it's less about me than I like, I Know I'm not complete, I'll be alright, I Know I'm still enough, we'll be alright (I think I feel too loudly) I Think (I don't know how to love you right) Too much about it every night (Don't wanna talk about it) I Think (I don't know how to love you right) It's less about me than I like (I think I feel so loudly) I Know (I don't know how to love you right) I'm not complete, I'll be alright (Don't wanna talk about it) I Know I'm still enough, we'll be alright So what I lied Should I have said I'm not alright What age were you When you found out your dad is human too Now I feel guilty when I hold onto you So what I lied I don't know how to love you right I don't know how to love you right