Bite Through My Tongue

Another year around the sun in search of Anything to pacify the numbing belief Irrespective of how our time was spent But what solace we were graced, my friend It all amounted to nothing in the end You always watched me as I'd ideate Diazepam and dulling ache Open-eyed, I'd stare at the mirror Drive my teeth straight through my tongue It's so stupefying knowing that one day your life Would be forgotten and In the spaces between my discomfort and grief I had nothing to offer to help you to sleep No question ever conjured up enough Detail to reconstruct The trust that you felt I had broken Shallow cuts for doubt to soak in (Now I don't think of you in apathy) You'd always watch me as I'd ideate (now I don't think of you in apathy) (Now I don't think of you in apathy) Diazepam and dulling ache (now I don't think of you in apathy) Open-eyed, I'd stare at the mirror Drive my teeth straight through my tongue It's so stupefying knowing that one day your life Would be forgotten and I can't help but feel like I'm to blame But if it hurt that much, then why did you stay? In the spaces between my discomfort and grief I had nothing to offer to help your sleep Surrender to pain, still scarred at the wrist An apostle for validation Yarn for the tapestry, woven in anger Rage for the sake of it, stuck on repeat No heaven ever equal to your skin but No hell like the wrath that lay beneath Open-eyed, I'd stare at the mirror Drive my teeth straight through my tongue It's so stupefying knowing that one day your life Would be forgotten (If it hurt so much, then why did you stay?) (Well, if it hurt so much, then why did you stay?)