Exorcist

5, 4, 3, 2, 1 action Is it blasphemy to have a sense of humor I picture my own funeral sometimes when I get bored I think about my family sharing one fucked up computer I used for playing solitaire and sometimes watching porn I always assumed I only liked boys, but now I'm not sure And the first time anyone touched me, they didn't ask me first Now I need more than a therapist I think I need an exorcist It feels like my head is spinning around I'm up on the ceiling and I can't come down I'm up on the ceiling High up on the ceiling I had a set of bible story VHS tapes My mother made me watch to balance out the other shows And all the girls I knew from school were cool and dressing sexy In their halter tops and clear lip gloss and Abercrombie clothes The human mind is a bullshit time machine You can travel back in time but you can't change anything Now I need more than a therapist I think I need an exorcist It feels like my head is spinning around I'm up on the ceiling and I can't come down And I've gotta deal with my personal demons It's not their fault they're up all night screaming They didn't ask to be born and neither did I And God I feel like throwing up I'm getting old but I'm not growing up So bring me a ladder and help me out I'm up on the ceiling and I can't come down I'm up on the ceiling High up on the ceiling I'm up on the ceiling and I can't come down