Johnny Gown

I held my breath for you Until you said you were through We spoke of death as if he was somebody that we knew I flung my words round the kitchen But nothing stuck like glue Everybody thinks I'm doing well Can't tell I'm barely respiring The doctor wrote me a letter The flowers dropped like flies The johnny gown they gave me matched my eyes To my surprise I flung my heart on the dresser Sewed it back to my sleeve Feeling all these feelings in real time Fights the disease But I'm tired of trying Ask me in the morning How I'm doing If I'm expiring, you'll see it in my vibe and The devil's in the details When I'm depriving myself from ever really thriving I called a cab at midnight I drank my last dose of gin I lost my patience thinking of what almost could have been I held the door for you You told me that we were through I guess you never know how many times You'll say goodbye