Nothing Left

I got a couple of fans Half of the homies, my mom and my gran When i was younger i made up a plan By 22, this would make me a grand Funny how life lead me on to a path Don't know if I should move on or go back "Baby's on the way, life's about to change" All these people talk, I can not relate Yeah, yeah, What the hell happened? I was a nobody, but I reacted Picked up my pen, fell in love with the rap and I gave it my all Was no time for distractions Some people tried to make fun of my passion But I'm going strong, I'm the only one laughing I can't wait to see all these funny reactions Like "how did he make it" HOw dID hE mAkE iT? Gotta keep moving Like the movement, up and away, I'm awake, no snoozing I'm in the cave, all day, what a looser Last week, thought my girl was an intruder No, this wasn't part of the deal, so I put my hoodie on real low Other rappers, i don't fear those But I got my mask on tight When I step in to the ring, I can dance all night And I'm 5 foot 8, but these hands don't lie If you say one thing, I don't act polite When i walk on stage, not a fan in sight But I'm not in to win it I don't care about the money or bitches I do it for them who feel lonely, and hoping that when they press play feel like somebody listen And even though I'm only there from a distance I keep my commitment So I'm not afraid to be different I make an imprint, as a misfit, yeah So I drown my fears, I been behind those blinds all year Try so hard just to hide my tears I think that the time is here To leave now, I'm up and away so peace out If there is a god then I am begging you on my knees now I loose control, but before I leave, I gotta let you know That this is the way it suppose to be so let me go, just let me go I cry when I'm lonely Friends are around but they don't even know me Demons they enter my mind, and say that I'm fine, got control of me Take me back to when my life was just a happy place I used to be on track but now its kind of hard to navigate I push myself away from all the people that have been so great to me It's hard to be me when I feel so fake, I contemplate the future, what is next? I'm alive, I know I'm blessed But I know if I do wrong, there will be nothing left What is next? I'm alive, I know I'm blessed But I know if I do wrong, there will be nothing left