Spiderwebs

When I get lonely I get stupid Bottle my feelings then I use them To get drunk To get blurry So I don't miss the way you hurt me When I get lonely I get angry How'd I let somebody change me? Mess me up Call me crazy Making me love you 'til I hate me It ain't easy being honest with myself no not at all All these lies I spin like spiderwebs I'm pinned against the wall But the truth is I Lost my mind Change my hair And I changed my size So I could fit Into all your needs I made you my identity Never thought loving you Meant losing me Saying my friendships were unhealthy Till I had no one else to help me Cut me off Cut me open So you could fix someone that's broken I was strong You were weak Now you're holding it against me Put you back On your feet Fed your ego I went hungry It ain't easy being honest with myself no not at all All these lies I spin like spiderwebs I'm pinned against the wall But the truth is I Lost my mind Change my hair And I changed my size So I could fit Into all your needs I made you my identity Never thought loving you Meant losing me The truth is I Lost my mind I miss my hair And I miss my eyes The way they were Before these tears Who am I without you here It ain't easy being honest with myself no not at all All these lies I spin like spiderwebs I'm pinned against the wall But the truth is I Lost my mind Change my hair And I changed my size So I could fit Into all your needs I made you my identity Never thought loving you Meant losing me