How can I ever make sure

Cause when I ask for advice from my friends it's only sounding like you've been unsure

I'm only trying my hardest to stay mature

Feels like I'm not getting anything back

I'd rather leave it in the black

I'll never chase another plaque

I'm never

I'm never chasing with the pack

I'm not even racing on the track

It doesn't matter what I lack

Put it on everything intact

One thing I'll never be is wack

Still, I curl in bed and I cry

Followed by hours of silence

I'm chasing it, but I'm blind

That's what I get for reliance

I do what I can to survive it's whatever

I still get intrusive thoughts nowadays it's not getting any better

The shirts don't even turn out as good because of the ******* weather

And I'm not even sure if I still want this anymore

But lately I still feel tethered

Why didn't we stay together

I laid awake until 4:30 in the morning, I haven't gotten any better

I wish to never

I wish to never upset her

I work so hard every day with no progress

Only ever ask for change

Every day I try so hard

But it's like tears in the rain

I had to lay on my stomach

I ate too much cause I'm bored

I wish last album did better

They're sleeping on me, of course

Why do I gotta pay rent

Why can't I live inside my head

I stare up at the attic, nobody's gonna let me in

Won't it start working if I repent

Or will I be exposed to monsters, while I'm still trapped inside the pen

I'm only trying my hardest to stay mature

Still, I curl in bed and I cry

Followed by hours of silence

I'm chasing it, but I'm blind

That's what I get for reliance

I'm only trying my hardest to stay mature

Still, I curl in bed and I cry

Followed by hours of silence

I'm chasing it, but I'm blind

That's what I get for reliance