Monkey on My Back

Not gonna lie,

I think it's fair to say I'm hurting now

Would rather be on a boat along the coast of Curaçao

I see you watching my every move, hoping I slip like your a scout

I'm the hottest out, but no one will vouch is the word around

Guess it's true what they say

You'll only get your flowers once they're laid on your gravestone

Remember calling her a meal, was something I'd take home

Told myself to chill and still relapsed on the same stuff

I've got many vices, but I'd be lying if I said the main one ain't lust

I'm excited once the feelings are reciprocated, but then frustrated when I see they've enabled it

It isn't their fault though, it's my problem and I'm the blame for it

I'm sure a doctor would suggest I should take some shit

But I'd rather stay natural and not latch to something that'd make me flip

I need to get off social media but it's part of my job though

Scrolling through my feed's, Russian roulette with sex models

One week I'm running to a check, next week I'm going through regret

Hard to admit that I'm addicted to sex, but that's my demon that follows

Semen she swallows

I could beam in a Beamer or dream in a Honda

Picture me scheming or picture me prosper

It's up to me to live with my demons or defeat em and conquer

Not gonna lie,

I think it's fair to say there's choices now

Once I found it's up to me, I was rejoicing loud

I'm the one to seize luxury and kick the noises out

I deserve some peace from my mind for life's enjoyment's now