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DEEP CUTS

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Hip-Hop/Rap

DEEP CUTS was released on July 11, 2025 by Shattwell Records as a part of the album SECTION 88

Song Details

AlbumSECTION 88

Release DateJuly 11, 2025

LabelShattwell Records

LanguageEnglish

Melodicness

Acousticness

Valence

Danceability

Energy

BPM86

OVERVIEW

LYRICS

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS

Kenneth Shattwell

Kenneth Shattwell

Rap

Hunter Hagen

Guitar

COMPOSITION & LYRICS

Kenneth Shattwell

Kenneth Shattwell

Songwriter

PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING

K.C.

Producer, Mastering Engineer

Kenneth Shattwell

Kenneth Shattwell

Producer, Mixing Engineer

H1TMAN

Producer

Nicholas Blake

Co-Producer

Reasy Beats

Producer

Lyrics

Do you remember the smell of that carpet?

I do. I was nine. monster in darkness.

Said it was "family bonding," God fucking help you,

Told me don't tell what the hell could I tell to?

I was just tryna play Pokémon cards,

You were playing God with a child, leaving scars.

Sick bitch said Don't worry, it's love,

Then zip up your lies and left blood on my trust.

I ain't ever looked at women the same,

Confused by affection, now I question the frame

Of every I love you and just every damn hug,

You stole my innocence, left me buried in drugs.

Fast forward now I'm punching all the walls,

Im tryna feel something even pain had to fucking crawl

Back into my nerves 'cause my soul was detached,

Like I left my whole heart, one flashback.

I hate you. And I hate myself

for not breaking free sooner, and I carry this guilt

Therapy said I was brave. Nah, bitch I was broken.

I just swallowed that silence like every word is choking.

This was the first cut

Deeper than fists or belts

this one was never shut.

Nine years old carry the guilt

And you know the devil he wore trust,

Now every single hug feels like a landmine's touch.

This was the first cut

Where the mask got made

the shame got stuck and I got saved

And if God sees all then I pray He saw that,

'Cause I still feel her breath when the room goes black.

You didn't get jumped, you're just actin' like a bitch,

Blood runnin' from my eye, black and split.

Told the truth, he twisted it with a surgical skill,

Gaslit me so hard, I just questioned what was real.

"You made that up." yeah? Well explain the bruises,

He said, "Boys need pain to be men, don't be stupid."

now the memories became a lie inside a script,

Like I was the villain for tellin' him I was hit.

Mama left when I was thirteen he said she ain't care,

Told us both she ran off with a stepdad and now she scared.

But she called, beggin' us to come, said we could leave...

He played puppeteer, pulled strings we couldn't see.

Turned us both against her said she never loved me,

Told me she was trash while he's beatin' me monthly.

Said "I could kill you," with his hands on my throat,

So I said "fucking Do it," he froze like a ghost.

This was the first cut… deeper than the skin

He ain't break a fuckin bone he broke the boy within.

Told me I was weak… made me swallow my truth,

Now I'm scared to raise my voice when I step in the booth.

This was the first cut… turned my love into hate,

Told my mom was the devil and I took the bait.

Im looking at myself and I see his face,

I'm Tryna scrub out my blood, but it's too ingrained.

Twenty years old, uniform on my back,

Said I'd find purpose instead I found cracks.

BDOC headset, static in my brain,

One call from a vet, and I ain't been the same.

He said, "Tell my kids I'm sorry" then there was a bang on the line,

And I replay it in my head like a loop in rewind.

They say "It's not your fault," but I still see hear his breath,

Yet I'm the one breathin' while I fell in depth.

Then came the breach red lights, zone two,

Rules of engagement, and I followed 'em through.

Put him down clean. But That's what they said,

But I can't stop wonderin' who that man was instead.

Was he a father? A brother? lost like me?

Was he free, does he feign, does he think of disease

And everything with a ribbon that they've given to me

and I I gave them my soul now I can't even sleep

Sweats in my sheets, wake up from nose bleeds

I'm Drained from no sleep I'm sorry when I scream,

Every fear in my mind feels like it's got a key,

And I scream in my dreams, but know I can't break free.

Still hear his voice when the base gets quiet,

Still hear the vet from my thoughts get violent.

Told myself "This is the pain that'll make you a man,"

But all it really did was take me from who I am.

This was the first cut

Deeper than fists or belts, this one just never shut.

Nine years old Cary the guilt

Devil wore trust

Now every hug just feels like it's blowing up like a landmine's touch.

This was the first cut

The mask I made the shame got stuck. I got saved

God sees all then I pray He saw that

'Cause I still feel her breath when the room goes black.

Written by: Kenneth C Shattwell

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