I'm at the age where I'm starting to hold grudges against,

Against my elders

You fucked up the people around me, I was eating from real homeless shelters

Was homeless with real lake dwellers, cooking real tenders

Had to learn 4 instrumentals to get out the streets against real bill collectors

Seen some real injectors that did 3 semesters with some real jesters

Not a Gemini so I'll never be a genius like Kanye so I take extra measures

No room for errors, can't be the fool, these **** is molesters

Working in that Jewish kitchen brought a different fear

I felt black for the first time in a room of whites in February

These the original go-getters and slave electors

I fucking hate the way my grandmother treat my momma

And no I feel no regrets ****, you die with that hatred ****, fuck the commas

That money mean nothing without something and that something is yo daughter

She got yo only grandson so taking care of her is taking care of me to be a father

Too many of my **** is left holy, no wonder-

Too many **** left holy, no need for any water

I'm a composer, a producer, a writer, actually an author

Also explorer, sometimes I lose her just to find her just to say "Hey Mrs. Parker!"

(And I'm aware of all your friends)

I'm aware of all your friends

(Calling you a fool)

They calling me the fool

(Tryna show me the praise)

I'm tryna show you everything

(To where I'm using you, you, you)

Yeah

I blocked my grandmother, my mother ruined my best love

I just wanna feel trusted, I feel boxed in a cage with doves

I'm a puppet being controlled by my mother, no wonder I feel unloved

You gave me the rule book and I always followed it beloved

I get that we family but I'm still human, we just happen to be blood

It's about respect, not chain of command, I'll never be a pawn

So cynical, no animosity towards you but you're so scared

It makes me wanna run, run, run, run, run, run, cream on me like a swan

I didn't want this to be like this

I just didn't think you'd turn into my grandmother but that's your mom

So I should've saw that coming so the situation I've withdrawn

From now and beyond, I'll respect your wishes but I'll never go to the street because of you

I'm torn because the queen turned into the fool

You want the best for your kingdom but that doesn't mean you burn it down

But I don't judge judy

I just let you roam free like how you're supposed to

For us, for me

I'm aware I'm often the fool but I still try to cry as the joker

Was taught Tonk but never Poker, deeper into folklore

Tote guns, still poor, false slogans, don't cry mi amor

I don't wanna feel too alone in this house, am I your nightly raconteur?