Song for Clay (Disappear Here)

I am trying to be heroic In an age of modernity I am trying to be heroic Because all around me history sings So I enjoy and I devour Flesh and wine and luxury But in my heart, I am lukewarm Nothing ever really touches me At the Trois Garçons We meet at precisely 9 o'clock I order the foie gras And I eat it with complete disdain Bubbles rise in champagne flutes But when we kiss, I feel nothing Feasting on sleeping pills And Marlboro Reds (Self-pity won't save you) Oh, how our, how our parents, they suffered for nothing Live the dream, live the dream, live the dream Like the 80's never happened People are afraid, are afraid to merge on the freeway Disappear here We stroll past the queue Into the magazine launch party I am handed a pill And I swallow with complete disdain Kick-drum pounds, off beat high-hats Remember to look bored We suck each other's faces And make sure we aren't noticed (The cocaine won't save you) Because East London is a vampire It sucks the joy right out of me How we long for corruption in these golden years Oh, how our, how our parents, they suffered for nothing Live the dream, live the dream, live the dream Like the 80's never happened People are afraid, are afraid to merge on the freeway Disappear here Disappear here Disappear here Disappear here Disappear here