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Losing It
Alternative Rap
Losing It was released on May 29, 2026 by RTR as a part of the album Pendulum 1: The Bulgarian B-Sides
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Release DateMay 29, 2026
LabelRTR
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM104

Music Video

Music Video

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
RTR
RTR
Performer
Artur Rudman
Artur Rudman
Rap
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Artur Rudman
Artur Rudman
Composer
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
RTR
RTR
Producer

Lyrics

I will see you in hell
I swear to God
I will meet you at the bottom of a bottle, motherfucker!
Life is hard like the beats I lay on
Therefore I don’t go out, and I stay home
But someday, there’s gotta be a change
All my peers are drinking, so I gotta do the same
Oh man, my load sure is heavy
I sure didn’t ask for all this grief
I can’t catch a break, I don’t get to rest, jeez
I’m glad I got people who really get me, they ring
Hey there Artie! You wanna have a drink?
You know I do, it’s cheaper than a shrink, or a friend
Because I’m a little short on time to spend
I won’t call after the drinking session ends
Too much on my plate, and nothing in my glass
Life loses meaning waiting for time to pass
So I cloud my mind, it’s easier that way
Then I don’t really have to use my brain, and I feel great
Fuck, I live a tough life, so give me a break
Let me waste the little money I make
I don’t build ladders, I prefer to keep digging
Top it off by sucking on a ciggy, who’s with me?
I know many who agree, yeah
So get off my ass, let me be free, man
This is my way to close up like a clam
It’s not like anyone ever gave a damn
I can’t stand, being bored, it bugs me a ton
I prefer looking through a glass onion
I stay drunken, just like the russians
Nothing I taste is safe for consumption
Now that self destruction, now that’s something else
I was born and raised under the vodka belt
It don’t freeze, so it might melt the snow
The cold, cold snow blowing in my soul, and so it goes
I woke up this morning, felt like breaking a few promises
Because I care for myself, fuck the rest
I don’t care anymore, fuck it all
So try me, motherfucker, I’ll run until I hit the wall
May the blood drip from my nose
I’ve got plenty more fuses to blow
But don’t you have so much to live for?
I lost my love and hope two months ago
One of these days I’m actually gonna cave in
I can feel the glass pierce the outer layer of my skin
The liquor's seeping in, now nothing can stop me
My mind is free, even though I’m walking sloppily
Ooh, I feel it, I’m gonna get threatening
I’m gonna crash and burn like a hydrogen zeppelin
This is the real me, it’s ugly, no doubt
I’m like a Piñata, bust me open and all the good stuff comes out
Fuck me
The weeks I have had
I’m telling you,
It’s been rough, it’s been rough
And I’m sitting there, you know
I’m trying to explain my problem
But people don’t fucking listen
People don’t listen
Nobody listens these days
Honestly, I don’t even fucking listen
Nobody fucking listens
And then, I’m just sitting there losing it like
I’m just like laughing my ass off
Cuz, cuz, It’s so fucking absurd
It doesn’t-, it doesn’t make sense
This doesn’t happen to real people
You know what I mean?
It’s fucking crazy
And now I guess I’m just like them, hahahaha
Keep dodging phone calls left and right, man
Left and right
Hahahaha
Well, ain’t that funny as a motherfucker?
Written by: Artur Rudman
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