Destruction of Myself

I close my eyes and make believe I'm anywhere but here It grows inside and makes me see I'm nowhere even near Although I've tried, there's no rewind, I cannot disappear I think it's time that I realize it's me inside that mirror 'Cause everything I do reflects on me And every path I choose effects me deep These scars are from the wounds I've left on me Only I fit the shoes that get the best of me Nothing's ever new made a mess of me It's all I ever do, it's oppressing me I'm hiding from the truth to the best degree But it's never out of view, it's my destiny Brought down and beat down Destruction of dealing with myself Nothing and no one, now it's done And I'm the one who fell, who fell It's my own hand that made me fall, there's no one else to blame I try to stand outside these walls and wish I felt the pain I try to cry but can't because I've dealt with this for days I'll die the man I am, after all, I'm selfish in my ways There's nothing you can do to save me now It's something that I choose, and it weighs me down It's coming and ensues to play me now Can't run from what I grew, it's made me how I look to all of you afraid, beat down Tattered, and abused, it remains renowned It's nothing, no new news how it's made me drown There's nothing left to lose, no escaping now Brought down and beat down Destruction of dealing with myself Nothing and no one, now it's done And I'm the one who fell Brought down and beat down Destruction of dealing with myself Nothing and no one, now it's done And I'm the one who fell, who fell The destruction of myself stems from no one's actions but my own Everything I do, with every breath I breathe, it's a mistake Every time I try, every time I try to overcome, I fail Failure to the fullest, everything I do is foolish Careless and clueless, I try to stop, but still, I do this Reckless I choose this, these self-inflicted scars and bruises Helpless and ruined, left for dead and rendered useless Brought down and beat down Destruction of dealing with myself Nothing and no one, now it's done And I'm the one who fell Brought down and beat down Destruction of dealing with myself Nothing and no one, now it's done And I'm the one who fell, who fell!