Blame on Me

Mama getting high up in the kitchen

Daddy wasn't there, yeah, he was missing

Nobody was there to even listen

I kept all my problems and kept my feelings hidden, yeah

Now put the blame on me

I put the blame on me, yeah

I put the blame on me

Only 10 years old, I'm already numb, yeah, my heart's getting cold

Saw my mama getting weak, it hurt me to my soul

The only man she loved, how could she do this to his girl?

He put that pistol to her head, I swear he coulda shot her dead

Man, that liquor made him evil

I swear, that man ain't had no reason

That shit just turned him to a demon, yeah

Fast forward a couple years, I done turned 12

Living life one hell to the next hell

I got cousins touching me inappropriately and don't nobody believe me when I tell

When you learn that your heroes ain't no one to look up to

And the same people hurtin' you, tellin' you they love you

Before too long, you start believing

That maybe you're the reason, yeah

Mama getting high up in the kitchen

Daddy wasn't there, yeah, he was missing

Nobody was there to even listen

I kept all my problems and kept my feelings hidden, yeah

Now put the blame on me

I put the blame on me, yeah

I put the blame on me

Age 14, left East St. Louis

New drama, but I really ain't new to it

Hear 'em laughing at lunchtime and I'm the joke

Black and white, but too black for the white folks

I can't do nothing 'bout my face, feeling all out of place

Over something I can't control

Fuck is wrong with these people?

Or is there something wrong with me though? Yeah

Age 16, life's still mean

Mama fell hard, needed rescuing

She got a new man, he told her simply

She could stay with him, long as she don't bring me

I guess she had to make a choice, did what she had to do

Chose him over her own kid

I don't know what would make her do this

Might it be been something I did?

Mama getting high up in the kitchen (Aye)

Daddy wasn't there, yeah, he was missing (Aye)

Nobody was there to even listen (Yeah, yeah)

I kept all my problems and kept my feelings hidden, yeah

Now put the blame on me

I put the blame on me, yeah

I put the blame on me

I was homeless 'til I turned 18

Started living with a man I was dating

Last thing on my mind was graduating

All about survival and money making

I would sing to escape my reality

Just tryna play the cards God dealt me

Posted myself singing a song 'cause it was on my heart

When it went viral, I was working at Walmart (Hey!)

I got a new start

Taking my pain, turning it into art

Turning bad times into hot songs

For the first time, I'm where I belong (Hey)

20 now, making moves, making money now

Rainy days, hella sunny now

But every now and then I think about

Mama getting high up in the kitchen (Aye)

Daddy wasn't there, yeah, he was missing (Aye)

Nobody was there to even listen (Yeah, yeah)

I kept all my problems and kept my feelings hidden, yeah

Now put the blame on me

I put the blame on me, yeah

I put the blame on me