why do i exist

Pale lips Bags under my eyes Alone after midnight Too numb to cry No friends At least I can pretend That everyone loves me Except that's a lie What happens when I die? Will people take their time Shedding their tears Or did I waste all my years? What happens if I stay? No, I promise I'll be okay 'Cause life can get hard And it tears me apart Bruises Wounds behind my back From people who stabbed me With hate in their eyes I'm over Because I'm a loner My pain is my closure Why do I exist?