Dying Inside

I got these dark thoughts, clogging up my fucking brain Might grab a blade and let it puncture through my fucking veins Watch the blood drip, and let myself die slow And when you find my body, make sure that my eyes closed And this is me, this is how I truly fucking feel So when you look me in my eyes, just know the pain is real I've been through things that I won't ever probably heal from Stuck in my dreams, cause when I sleep is when I feel numb I never thought my life would turn into a nightmare I fight my demons, but they never fucking fight fair If you only knew the half of what the fuck I face I try to move forward but it's like I'm stuck in place No matter what, It's like the devil's chillin' on my shoulders Everyday is getting darker, nights are getting colder Barely sober just so I could leave reality But when the high wears off, depression just recaptures me Take a look into my eyes Can you tell me what you see I've been empty, dead inside Take me out of my misery Can you listen to my heart Can you tell me if it beats Can you see all of my scars Every single wound that is hidden deep And I don't want to be alive no more And I can't bear this pain, these tears I can't hide no more And I don't feel the love, no I don't feel the love at all And nothing feels real, my life is just a big facade I wish that I could change, I wish that I could smile again I wish I could explain this hell in which I'm drowning in I'm sinking fast and I can feel my soul burn to ashes Don't hold my hands when it's time for you to close my casket Let me go, let me rest in peace and finally heal And let my story represent the pain I once concealed I gave it all I had but somethings just aren't meant to be I tried to tell you that my time would come eventually No matter what, just know I'm thankful for the life I had I'm thankful for the memories and all the empty laughs Forever sad, my Innocence will be forever gone So long, I won't be breathing by the crack of dawn Take a look into my eyes Can you tell me what you see I've been empty, dead inside Take me out of my misery Can you listen to my heart Can you tell me if it beats Can you see all of my scars Every single wound that is hidden deep