Cat in the Window (feat. Cameron Jo Boyd)

Staring outside Emptiness is slowly creeping up into my life I'll watch the sun hide behind Everything horizons just kind of untangle me But they'll never see me cry I know the light was always blinding But running for the hills is always Better than unwinding this castle Of lonliness is all I can remember I'm planning my escape in mid December I come back to that window in the dead of night There's a light that likes to flicker barely out of sight The shadows in the courtyard seem to come alive And they're waiting for the day my fears and heart collide I'm clawing to get out like God you'll never know but I'm broken down They all just make me feel alone I'm not the one they'll ever come to truly know So I'll sneak out Though god it's probably freezing cold Woah oh Do I carry it right The person in the mirror just wants to run and hide Well I'm dying in the silence of Every single error I've ever told in confidence Until I'm out of fight I'll try looking for a hand to hold Summers getting older and I never got the time to grow Ivy's reaching up the wall it wants my windpipe They all just like to hide behind their insight It was March 18th we had a big fight You left in a huff woke up in the middle of the night Think it was all a dream but I looked over my shoulder And you weren't there And for the first time in my life I was cold Without you there old Just a moment there I thought we were for life my dear That's what you told me every year Holding my hand so tight Thinking our future's bright But I never felt abandonment quite like that night That lonely blight Do I carry it right I'm staring outside It wants my windpipe And it's waiting, it's waiting for the day This castle of luxury is all is all my heart remembers It can't see this toxic creation of tremors