Yeah, I stare at the clouds when i'm feeling down

Reflecting on life and noticing how

That during the silence, all my thoughts get loud

So i block them out wish she was around

But i guess life has a way of removing the people who do not deserve you

And it has a way of you feeling connected to all those same people that hurt you

I'll be the first to, say i made mistakes

I know deep down, that i am not perfect

Lately i been isolating myself & digging deep to re- discover my purpose,

Strangers see me as an artist, but they don't see the pain I bury underneath the surface

I know what i feel inside, I, I just don't know how to word it

We love who hurts us, and hope they can change

Until they hurt us, then hurt us again

Then we start to change, and cause others pain

The cycle repeats, and it doesn't break

A product of trauma, oh god what a shame

Now we hurt those who come along the way

Leaving a trail of victims then complain

How were to damaged and can't be saved

My life ain't where it's suppose to be

I'm losing people close to me

Didn't know cuts were suppose to bleed

What a lie that was sold to me

Ooo and I' m standing by myself

Staring at the clouds, but feeling hella down

Feeling hella down

Hurt people hurt people, I been hurt plenty

Hurt people hurt people and i've hurt many

It does upset me, knowing some resent me

Life was unsteady, hope they forgive me

I can't keep spending, my life with regret

The way i was raised, it fucked with my head

That's why i find it so hard to connect

Maybe that's why i left every ex

I only dated woman, so i didn't feel lonely

And ignored the fact that they had all their issues

And i self sabotaged our future, instead of acknowledging

Everything that i been thru

Know i forgive you, i wasn't perfect, cuz we both came from a past

Mine made me fearful, yours made you hurtful

And that's why we didn't last

Some numb their feelings, by taking prescriptions

But i numb my feelings by just sitting with them

I'm wishing that there was a way i can rid them

Cuz it's hitting hard like a 2 car collision

This isn't me venting or looking for sympathy

This is realizing i need to commit to me

Cuz if i don't then ima keep living miserably

These feelings, i'm feeling, are crippling and

My life ain't where it's suppose to be

I'm losing people close to me

Didn't know cuts were suppose to bleed

What a lie that was sold to me

Ooo and i'm standing by myself

Staring at the clouds, but feeling hella down

Feeling hella down