Keeping Score

I was 18, freshly into college Kinda missed my family, feeling melancholic Things were better than they were in high school That place was a first-rate depression cesspool There was a lonely ache in my body Wanted somebody to hold me just for the night Went looking for a heartbreak, looking for a mistake But I didn't know it at the time That was the autumn I was hoping I could pull you God, I really want to Nose always in a book So I started wearing perfume Said you like the smart girls Had to up my game Studied for my one minute of fame But you fed me to the lions Can't you hear them roar? Sitting in the background Keeping score, keeping score You knew that boy had said he loved me four days into talking And I dropped him because he sent my skin crawling Held his life to my throat, wrote me ransom notes I couldn't sleep for months Thought maybe you'd be different, and I was right But not in the way I hoped I might be Oh, my avoidance met its match And I became attached That was the autumn I was trying hard to pull you God, I really want to Lead 'em on and let 'em down Isn't that your full truth? Said you like the smart girls Let you pick my brain Was I at least good for your grades? But you fed me to the lions Can't you hear them roar? Sitting in the background Keeping score, keeping score I felt cool (I felt cool) Under your attention and I guess You forgot (You forgot) To mention what you were looking for Wasn't me (Wasn't me) Even though I wanted to be yours Completely (Ah) Now I'm just keeping score Ah, ah ah I was 18, freshly into college Kinda missed my family, feeling melancholic