Smiling out of Habit

Stuck in my head and I'm starting to think that I'm hopeless I can't catch my breath and I'm praying that no one will notice I try to be fine They say it comes with time, so why am I wasting mine? Where is the end of the line? Chasing every high since I've been feeling low Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals I think I'm headed for an overdose I don't want to believe it, I don't want to feel this I spend too much of my time overthinking everything Lie awake at night, it starts sinking in And I know I'm only making fiction But the sadness has been creeping in I try to be fine They say it comes with time, so why am I wasting mine? For something I'll never find Chasing every high since I've been feeling low Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals I think I'm headed for an overdose I don't want to believe it, I don't want to feel this Chasing every high since I've been feeling low (feeling low) Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals (Some better chemicals) So I don't have to feel a single pain at all (nothing at all) Cause I think I might be headed for an overdose I wish that I could tell you that I'm ok, but I'm not I'm smiling, but its just out of habit, I can't stop I hear that dopamine is all I need to finally get some sleep Even said I'm sorry, but this all can't take me from my dream I don't want to believe it I don't want to feel this Chasing every high since I've been feeling low Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals I think I'm headed for an overdose I don't want to believe it, I don't want to feel this (I don't want to feel this) Chasing every high since I've been feeling low (feel this low) Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals (I need better chemicals) So I don't have to feel a single pain at all (I don't want to feel) Cause I think I might be headed for an overdose (yeah) Chasing every high since I've been feeling low (chasing a high) Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals So I don't have to feel a single pain at all (So I feel nothing at all) Cause I think I might be headed for an overdose Chasing every high since I've been feeling low Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals I think I'm headed for an overdose