Let me into your childhood bedroom

Let me see the things you've held so dear

Let me break apart the things you've always held so near

Let me smash your Lego sets

Rip the heads of your Barbie dolls and your

Miniatures, and your

Beanie babies

I want you to hate me

For a reason that I can fully understand

It's a shame I've always hated being wrong

It's a shame you let me talk for far too long

You've always known the things that I couldn't know

It's a shame we built a nest where I couldn't grow

I pulled it apart, to form something new

I'm at peace with what I said that I'd never do

It's a shame we entertained this for too long

Like seeing smoke when the fire is gone

Let me hold you harder

Complain you don't feel everything that I do

You let me tear your home apart

I tried making something new

I'm so visionary,

But I always came so short of impressing you

We will always gaze at the sky

A place so fundamental

Belonging to you and I

There were fires on your street,

It's a shame we never found a better place to meet

Promise me

Absolutely nothing

Promise me that I'm not waiting for nothing

A place curling up to die

To build a new nest for you and I

I look for the words on the tip of my tongue

I can push them to death in my iron lung

I'll scream till my voice goes numb

It just keeps going and going, I-

You've always known these things that I could not know

It's a shame I've built a nest where I could not grow

I will gather what was left of what we made together

I will hold it close, I will nurture it forever

...

The flight paths have faded long ago

I let the garden grow so

Long, you can barely see the home

Will there be more for me?

I'm great at being alone

I can't deal with the silence at all, I just need

A new place to call my own

I'm so much better when I'm alone

...

When I'm alone

...

I've spent a while,

Unfolding myself

Devaluing my words

Hating myself

I keep putting things into perspectives that just don't make sense

I keep thinking that I see you

Truth be told, the entire idea haunted me for such a long time

I really did fall in love with you.

Truth be told, I still don't know what you saw in me

I don't know how much time has to pass before I get to feel free

It's true that i hated walking down your street

But it's only because I wanted to feel you were closer to me

I've tried to crush the doubt in my own grip,

Destroying myself in that vice

I've tried to replicate that feeling of being pinned down by your thumb

It was comforting

I don't know if there are any reasons to keep doing this

Any reasons to sing these songs

Maybe after doing it so many times, you'll like me enough

Maybe after doing this enough times, I'll realize that I don't deserve to be loved

I'm sorry that I, time and time again, stuck my foot in the door

I'm starting to realize that I don't know who I'm creating this for

I said everything to spite your face

The hate only came out of love's empty state

We both came from the same place, I-

I promise,

You were never a hollow embrace.