Control

Oh-h, Ye-ye, Losing control, finding control Yeah, wa-woah; I'm like a run away train or a beast untamed A mouth full of paraffin spittin' in the flames More than a few lines written on the grave Man im living on a page till the victim to the rage Psychological trigger bound by the diabolical figure I acknowledge the distance as grown It's like my thoughts are my own sometimes when I zone Ego is over blown Strugglin' to keep it all on the check What we need is more respect On the same page we can all progress But too many act like they're too big for that Whipping that car out of the lane And it its getting back The lost of control Now you're not boss of your own life You're trapped in a fight you got to resolve And then you climb back gradually And find that clarity Then lie back happily These voices in my mind are here to whisper and I can't hide 'em I try my best to fight them Then I end up feeling violent Know it ain't my nature So alone and zoning silence Is it weed that made me like this or are my mind just like it Stuck in solitude or sinking to a tiny island Resembled booted up in side me like deadly virus Where you end up in the way we pressurize it Climbing back a wall and building webs attack spiders Many legions of the empire and I can't provide it Trying to keep my shot in balance Find it hard confinding Frozen face smiling With glass eyes Clogging the strings of a violin Work load crushing like a truck flipping sideways Flowing out the wall I want to alleviate this migraine I guess I gotta live this life from right out of highway Losing control, finding control Your heart and your body Mind and your soul Trying to keep a hold But my grip stays slipping Meditate for a minute till my mind state lives Losing control, finding control Your heart and your body Mind and your soul Trying to keep a hold But my grip stays slipping Meditate for a minute till my mind state lives Steady with the slip Trying to stay focused But my mind takes a trip Every time I take sip From ho to housewife from housewife to ho It seems rounded circles I go The gi gi gi girls Will get yo go go so so mental The only thing that suits Is another instrumental If the chicken leaves a sour taste Tell her bring the menu Cause we can be civil And That's all I recommend you I'm taking control Or at least trying And now just trying to make a difference And keep flying Not just keep denying It's much harder to lie to myself That's why I'm kicking off pirates from this ship For no one else Blame is a funny game Shame is another stain Call my name into the tracks where I used to play Change what I used to say Like I used to stray Lose or gain control Gain or lose a day Its been a minute since we spoke I've been battling the demons in my head trying to cope Was it the weed that I smoked Booze, acid or the coke Playing shows every weekend They're coming home broke But it ain't about the money Really do it for the love fam I'm saying that i wish she wasn't so pissed off When I'm playing under aware That my brain is decaying Can't remember where I've been And my mind is relating Paranoid delusions with no real solutions Running in a circle that my habits are choosing Feel like I'm losing and it ain't no hope It seems we're gonna get if from But we are in the same boat Trying to juggle addiction Struggling' with the truth And it's time to quit them Don't wanna be the victim like the past And show me You wanna change the day But it's happening slowly Losing control, finding control Your heart and your body Mind and your soul Trying to keep a hold But my grip stays slipping Meditate for a minute till my mind state lives Losing control, finding control Your heart and your body Mind and your soul Trying to keep a hold But my grip stays slipping Meditate for a minute till my mind state lives