I Want You to Know That I'm Awake/i Hope That You're Asleep

Bullshit, love, bullshit, love is bullshit I am not allowed to have feelings Feelings would complicate this I'm a stupid ugly stuttering asshole And there's no dignity in my anger Mind if I cough in your ear all night? Mind if I resent you for a year tonight? I am not the type of man Who can fall asleep in someone else's arms (Didn't mean to lie 'bout it all) I love you, sometimes I love you But it's hard to say, there are times when I don't love I can't love anything in this world I want you to know, I want you to know I want you to know that I'm But I hope that you're I hope that you're a- It doesn't matter what I say If you don't say anything in response The final phrase of my last sentence Hangs in the air, sounding stupider and stupider Why can't you at least laugh? I tried so hard to find the right words But it's a matter of timing, you only have so long To capture the feeling before it's gone Here is a demo of my latest sentence I'll fill in the good parts later I'll make it fit together real nice And cut out all the "likes" Two days ago, it was really bad I couldn't get my head straight all day And everything you said seemed to have an edge You were disappointed, and I didn't know why Eventually, it came to a head Over something as stupid as making coffee You said it was a mistake to ever try and help me Then, you went in the kitchen I drove off to go buy some stuff Which was a mistake because I didn't want to come back I just sat in the parking lot And dabbed at my thumb, which was bleeding for some reason Leaving a trail of red blossoms on the napkin I felt sick and I didn't know what to do How long would it be before I could face you? Flash back to the first angry song I had to hide from you It goes like this, "I am hiding from you at the QFC, QFC, QFC" Michael and Brian broke up today But we're not like them, no, we're nothing like them Frankie and Ava broke up today But we're not like them, no, we're nothing like them Felice and Lanky broke up today But we're not like them, no, nothing like them John and Yoko separated for a year But we're not like them, no, nothing like them The Beatles broke up today But we're not like them, no, we're nothing like them Paul said, "I just started doubting everything I did" But you're not like him, no, you're nothing like him Your parents and my parents, well, let's not get into that 'Cause we're not like them, we are nothing like them Degnan and Skippy haven't spoken for a while But we're not like them, no, we're nothing like them, no (I hope that you're still asleep)