I'm Not Scared

I'm not scared of you this time And when you pick up the phone, I'll stay on the line And I'll do more than breathe this time And I'll let you in, at least I'm gonna try And it felt so strange when I said it out loud That I look for redemption in everyone else But funny thing is that I always hated church Spend so much time looking that I forgot to search And to be a woman is to be in pain And my body reminds me almost every day That I was made for another, but I don't wanna know that 'Cause it happened once and I always look back In my sentience, I wear your judgement like a crown Couldn't look you in your eyes, so I look to the ground Then I took the drugs again last night But pills have never brought me any kind of light My eyes are heavy, all I wanna do is sleep But I need to make money and I need to eat And loving never made anybody I know happy And loving only seems to make you bruise and to bleed And to be a woman is to be in pain And my body reminds me almost every day That I was made for another, but I don't wanna know that 'Cause it happened once and I always look back