Ptsd

(LexNour) I was walkin' home on a Sunday I was walkin' home on a Sunday I was walkin' home on a Sunday I was walkin' home on a Sunday And I'm not lookin' back But I'm not looking forward To anything in my life, 'cause it never liked me I can't sleep 'cause I don't know what's inside me The devil's demons haunt and do divide me And I think I'm over it So I won't stop walkin' If told you the story, bet you wouldn't believe Not sure I should feel a sigh of relief He got them, but he didn't get me But for some odd reason, I don't feel free So now what? This pain is too much The screams of the people make music In my head and to listеn's too tough So I must Wipe my mind of everything I saw in that church Supprеss all these feelings even though that they hurt I don't understand how You could let this happen God, I wanna know why You even let that man on earth I believe that this life is by You and whatever You choose is the best I believe in the choices You make Even though they may hurt and affect I'm just human, I don't understand You, I know You are very complex What should I go do next? My thought cannot connect My PTSD shakes me and leaves me depressed In the back of my mind, there's a place that I know full of sorrow When I think of those times, my anxiety fills what is hollow I don't know when it'll go away But I hope it'll go away I just pray I feel better when I sleep and wake up tomorrow Left foot, right foot, keep walkin' Left foot, right foot, keep walkin' Don't look back, your past is hauntin' Demons creeping, always stalking In that church, I got down crawling Couldn't not stop my eyes from balling Children screaming, bodies falling Keeps on shooting, bullets hawking Someone help us, please just stop him Why's he laughing? He's been plotting Says "Get up", I hear death calling I stood up and started walking We locked eyes and he was smiling Shot himself, I saw him dying Adrenaline was in my system, I couldn't stop, I had to go But I just knew that if I made it, I'd get out and praise the Lord Now I'm walkin' on this Sunday, and I just hope I make it home I was walkin' home on a Sunday I was walkin' home on a Sunday I was walkin' home on a Sunday I was walkin' home on a Sunday