God's Plan

(I know God got a plan) (God got a plan) (God got a plan) I know they say Gods got a plan Did he plan for me to hurt this much though? And I tell myself I got this Then tell myself I'm not shit And I guess it's a toxic cycle that I can't seem break I can't see who's fake I make the worse decisions Man I started praying Asking for answers Like "Why my grandma?" Seven billion people in the world But you were still willing to take her Don't lie Don't try Father It bothers me knowing you see me suffer Don't know if you'll get this because you haven't answered any of my others My depressions getting harder to handle But like Johnny Manzel I've only won three battles on the inside So that's why I hide on the outside And I guess from here on out All I can say is "God I'm feeling low" Even when I'm it don't feel like I'm winning Wake up and bow my head 'cause I'm asking for forgiveness I can't believe you dead Karma got us for the sinning You told me "Count my bread, that's the opps" And now we winning I know God got a plan (I know God got a plan) Got a plan (God got a plan) I know God got a plan (God got a plan) Trynna be a better man I know God got a plan I need your love, strength just to get up And I know it's a lot Maybe that's why you're not answering me But I see that I'm a burden Why am I hurtn' this much That's a question I wanna ask you Why do I question my life Man I'm not gonna let anyone get close to me I'm still seeing the ghost of those who made me this way And I hardly sleep because I still see you When I feel high I start to feel down again Almost committed the unforgivable Maybe it would've helped Maybe I wouldn't feeling this way anymore Yeah Gods gotta plan But he ain't sharing the details But maybe that's why I'm better alone Fuck I pray the Lord my soul to keep I cross my hands in agony Man fuck this cross on my neck Even when I'm it don't feel like I'm winning Wake up and bow my head 'cause I'm asking for forgiveness I can't believe you dead Karma got us for the sinning You told me "Count my bread, that's the opps" And now we winning I know God got a plan (I know God got a plan) Got a plan (God got a plan) I know God got a plan (God got a plan) Trynna be a better man I know God got a plan Gods plan is taking to long Why the fuck do you think I'm making this song? Milestone after milestone RMR baby Maybe that's why my dreams still seem so far No matter how much older I get The pain will still hit We can't deny that shit Niether can you After almost dying I started asking for help The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit Death I no longer fear it I just want the pain to end Is that to much to ask for? I see whores happier than me Even when I'm it don't feel like I'm winning Wake up and bow my head 'cause I'm asking for forgiveness I can't believe you dead Karma got us for the sinning You told me "Count my bread, that's the opps" And now we winning I know God got a plan (I know God got a plan) Got a plan (God got a plan) I know God got a plan (God got a plan) Trynna be a better man I know God got a plan (I know God got a plan) (God got a plan) (God got a plan)